Autumn

Not so sad.
Just need a cry.
A release.
A nose running
     tear streaming
         voice wailing

Cry.

The pressure’s building.
The stresses are mounting.
The world’s waiting.
The sky is falling.

I’m not so sad.
No one thing
is too much.
Altogether…though…

it is.

Life is never.
    Fully.
        Fair.
Sometimes
the bad guys
            win.
Sometimes
the good guys
            lose.

That’s life.

Anticipation.
Hope for the best.
Expect.    The.    Worst.

Of course.

It could be
the hurt
    and the anger
        and the unfairness
        that someone
    I love
can’t escape.
And it could be
my tendency
to take up
other people’s cross,
while ignoring my own.

It could be fear.
It could be death.
It could be a baby…

    …who never was.

It could be the innocence of
today
4 years ago
    vs.
the exposed pain of
tomorrow
4 years ago…
…the shocking truth
that sometimes
    MIRACLES
turn out different
than expected.

The first day of Autumn.
The life cycle begins
and ends.

The truth is
I’m not so sad.
I just need a
    Cry.
An acknowledgment
that today
    is a good day
        to cry.

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