I haven’t been wanting to write because I find myself using these pages to feel sorry for myself. I’ve realized that while stuff is happening to me, the biggest turmoil lies inside of me and how I choose to process things. I am focusing on all this negative, and temporarily forgetting the positive. The truth is, I have so much good stuff happening in my life right now, and I am ignoring my blessings by dedicating all my time and energy to the negative.
Not only that, if I were to stop focusing so much on myself, I would see that my problems are few compared to those of others. I have not truly suffered, as others have. I am blessed with so much!
Yes, our problems are our own, and that’s what makes them hard for us. But what if I changed the way I viewed things? What if I stopped dwelling and just went back to focusing on the positives in life. How would that affect my outlook, and how I dealt when these problems arose again? Would I be closer to God without all this stuff just weighing me down? Well, I plan to find out! Maybe it’s time I started unloading my backpack too, huh Gina?
*Lord, you have given me so much, and I have opened my eyes to your blessings. Thank you for this life and all it holds. Thank you for not putting me through a life that holds much suffering. Thank you for the love and promise that surrounds me. Help me to see all this even when times are harder than they are now. I want to be your child, and always thankful for what I have.