I’m really nervous today. Today is the kid handoff. I don’t understand why I’m nervous. I really don’t think my ex would physically do anything. But my counselor says the likliest reason for my anxiety is that his anger brings up feelings and flashbacks of the past. In that aspect, I am still his prisoner.
Today is also the kids’ party. Is it weird that I am nervous about that? LOL! I have everything almost all set up…. It’s that last minute thing, you know?
Last night was really powerful. I appreciate all the prayers over me. I need it. And I am also praying. I am hoping that in a year or less, this will all be a distant memory, and I will be well on my way in my life and path. Thank you for all of your powerful prayers!
*Lord, you are showing your power every day. You have brought me out of my shell andinto the lives of wonderful people. And you have brought them into mine. I praise you, and am at your mercy. Please protect my heart as I meet with my ex tonight, and protect my children as they are away from me. I know that they are not in danger, but while they are not in my care, I ask that your angels stand guard against anything that could harm their bodies, souls, and minds.
Please help me in my struggles to come. Help me to know this is the right choice I am making.
And please bless the kids’ birthday party they are having today. Help me to make it a fun time for everyone.